what's wrong?

hmm, asal dengan aku neyh? Shit lawh. Tak payah lawh nk ingat die tuh da, die bukan kawan ko da lawh tika! Ingat sikit lawh tika! Arghhhhhhh! Weyh! Asal ko xkasi aku hidup aman sikit?? Kenapa ko jadi kawan aku sebelum neyh? Kenapa aku jumpa ko? Kenapa aku baik dengan ko? Kenapa aku bole syg ko? Kenapa aku bole kenal ko? Kenapa benda neyh sume jadi dekat aku? Kenapa ko buat mcm neyh? Kalo ko ade dekat depan aku skang maybe aku akan tanya 'bole ko ubah diri ko jadi ko yang aku kenal dulu??' And aku akan ckp 'i love you as my friend even you kill me by your own hand' but I think it's useless. Maybe bila aku nak mati baru aku bole aku ckp semua neyh. Why? She make me hate herself. I asked her before this whether she love me as her friend, then she say that she love me and you know how much happy I am? It's not easy to me to find someone love me. I don't know wheather she love me as her friend for the truth or what. She doesn't care about this anymore. She's looks very happy with her life now. Aku plak rasa hidup aku kosong skang. Semua kawan aku tak ada untuk aku da! Semua tak macam dulu da. Aku mmg kawan tak sempurna, tak sehebat orang lain and aku ZERO! That's the truth. That's why semua neyh jadi dekat aku. Am I right? Yeah that was me. Thank you for those bagi aku hati aku gelap macam dulu. I hope everything will back as usual but it's not as easy as I hope. Hmm aku berserah dekat ALLAH s.w.t jer untuk selamatkan persahabtan kita neyh T.T